Please give me strength...

I don’t think I am strong enough to adapt what I had been through…Allah..please forgive me what I had done….please replace it with something that can make my heart more calm..harmony and happy…..yes..yes I did ..and that’s why I had decide this way because of You…nor others…and I really hope that what I chosen right now is the best decision….yes..sometimes I still think of it….and it give PAIN for mee……really pain...crying…woman and her tear can’t be separated… I belief….what I have been through I can’t try to forget it simply…but I can’t always think about it always..i need to think about myself too and my future too…Allah…please give me strength to adapt this test from You……